Text of Meditation:Isaiah 53:3 But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.
Songs of Meditation: 

The Potter’s House by Tremaine Hawkins 

I am what you see  by Bishop Paul S. Morton

Walking in and Living in my truth was something that was very difficult for me to do but it was something that I had to do in order to be free. My pregnancy completely changed and transformed my life. It wasn’t always good things however. I spoke before about a shame and guilt that I carried with me after I became pregnant. My son’s dad and I were not together, we were not going to be together so I went through most of it alone. I was ashamed of what people would think and say about me. For a long time I tried to remedy the situation instead of learning from it, going through it and ultimately growing through it. I thought well if I make my situation look pretty it would be better; if I made sure my son was well dressed, if I always looked put together, if we did “family things” together, if I try to make us work, then it would make everything better. I thought if my son’s dad and I became a couple then it would take away the shame. It would erase the fact that he wasn’t at my shower, it was erase the fact that I went to my doctor’s appointments alone, and all the other things that was wrong. It was as if I want to put a pink wrapper with ribbons and bows on poop. Yes, it would look pretty, but it would still stink. It would look nice from afar but the closer you get to it, you would start to smell it. What I was trying to do made the situation worst. It was as if I was trying to force two magnets with the same charge together. The closer they’re pushed together the stronger the magnetic pull is in the opposite direction. I had to remove all the pretty wrappers and literally clean up the mess. Clean it up the right way. It was not going to be easy but it was necessary. More importantly I had to stand in my mess and not hide from it or be ashamed of it. This is why we need God in our lives. This is why we need to have a close relationship and walk with him. He specializes in turning messes to messages, victims to victors, tests into testimonies. “R”, my son’s dad was the first person to tell me to walk in my truth. He would often say to me, who cares what people think or what they say, you have to live your truth. You have to own your stuff. I used to dismiss him but he was actually right. I was holding myself in a prison. I had burdened myself with guilt, shame, resentment, etc. I had locked myself up and threw away the keys. It became too much for me and I had to make the decision to let all of those baggages go. I had to free myself. Today, I proudly wear my scars. They have shaped who I am. I may have been broken but I’m healed and guess what, broken crayons still color. No matter what you have done or where you have come from, God can still use you. We are never so broken that he can put us back together. We are not Humpty Dumpty and our God is bigger and stronger than all the kings horses and the kings men. My past doesn’t dictate or determine my future. Every saint had a past and every sinner has a future. Our savior himself came out of the lineage of Rahab; a known prostitute. Don’t ever think that you are so far gone. God is a healer. He is a restorer. Start seeing yourself the way God sees you instead of the way that man see you. You are who God says you are; and that’s a child of King. So start thinking, talking, walking and acting like the prince and princess that you are. Whatever guilt you’re carrying, whatever secret you may have, whatever shame you may be holding onto, I urge you to lay them at the feet of Jesus. He can turn any situation around. There is no one that’s amongst us who is sinless. I urge you to walk and live in your truth. The truth will always set you free. Wishing you a blessed and happy Friday and a wonderful weekend 💋