Have you ever wanted something so badly and you just knew that God was going to give it to you? You prayed day in and day out and tried your best to do everything you’re supposed to do. You felt it deep down in your spirit that this thing was going to happen, it was just a matter of when. And then it doesn’t happen. God doesn’t deliver. In fact, it seems as if he just flat out said no. You are left really shocked, confused, hurt, upset and you begin to question God. That’s how I’m feeling this morning. I feel like God, I’m trying my best to do your will. I’m trying to live right, I’m trying to obey you and follow your word, I’m trying to trust you completely, I’m trying to seek after you and your kingdom(I say try because our best efforts will still always fall short). I often times feels that there are people in this world that don’t even know or love you and they seem to have everything they want! So God, how could you let me down? How could you do this to me? How could you break my heart? What more is needed of me? I’m going to be embarrassed because I was so sure of this thing and now that it’s not happening, I feel stupid for believing in the first place. Where do I go from here? I had all of my eggs in this one basket. What now God? Then it dawned on me that this may be a No from God or a Not Right Now. Or maybe this a test. Maybe God is saying to me; Will you still love me? Will you still prophesy in my name? Will you still obey me? Will you still keep my commandments? Will you still trust me? Will you still seek after me and my kingdom after I’ve told you no? Or will you throw a tantrum and kick and scream until you get what you want? Will you curse me? Will you lose faith in me? What I realized in all of my hurt and disappointment that God said that all things will work out for my good. So even if this is a no or a not right now, it’s what’s best for me. I’m standing in the gap right now. The space between what I see in the natural and the vision God has given me. I’m standing in the space of, I’m waiting for you God until you say move. I’m standing in the place between weeping through the night and joy in the morning. I’m standing in the gap between captivity in Egypt and the promise land of Canaan. I can’t go backwards into captivity yet I’m not ready to go into the promised land. I’m in the gap of no man’s land. I’m standing in the gap. And while I’m in that gap, while I’m in my wilderness, I cannot lose faith or lose sight of the goal. This is when my faith should be the strongest. This is when I need to have that mustard seed faith. You see the devil is a liar. He knows the plans God has for me and you, but he’s going to try to whisper in our ear and say; you see God doesn’t care about you, he doesn’t love you. He doesn’t want you to be happy. We have to rebuke him. He’s a liar and a manipulator. We have to praise God even in our wilderness moments. So that’s what I’m going to do. I’m going to praise God in advance for what I know he’s going to do for me. I’m going to shout hallelujah because of where he brought me from and where he’s taking me. I’m going to be like Job and say thou he slay me, yet will I trust him! So if you’re going through a wilderness moment, this is not the time to lose hope and faith. This is the time for the opposite. It doesn’t matter what people may say. It doesn’t matter how you think you’re going to look to others. You may have set deadlines after deadlines and they’ve all come and gone with nothing. But know that his timing is perfect. Whatever God promises, he’s going to do it and that much more. He’s not a man that he would lie. The answer may not come in the form that we want it, but it will come and when it comes, it will be greater than anything we could’ve imagined. So remain faithful. Sit back and watch him work!!! Happy Thursday and be blessed❤️

P.S. This song by Donnie McClurkin speaks to my heart right now. Check it out below.

https://g.co/kgs/McKvHh