People tell me that I’m strong all the time but I don’t ever feel that way. I cry in my bed at some nights. At times I even sob. I question God, I even get angry with him because I don’t understand what’s going on. I wonder if he forgot about me. Every now and then I get depressed and I feel like throwing in the towel but then I always have to remember that my God is a waymaker and a miracle worker. As I mentioned in my last post this has been a crazy week for me. And today proved to be no different. Here’s the backstory; Almost two years ago I took a leap of faith and accepted a job that I was unsure of. I remember not even wanting to go to the interview and not caring if I got it or not. They found me and reached out to me. The pay was great but I was comfortable where I was and I was running things. I wasn’t sure about starting completely over. I prayed about it and I ultimately made the decision to accept the offer. I decided to trust God and act on faith and not fear. Well let me tell you, I started that job and hated it. The lab was poorly ran in my opinion and I didn’t agree with a lot of their protocols. On top of it, I quickly became the odd man out. The other two techs had developed a bond and it was clear that 3 was a crowd. They were mean to me, they wouldn’t speak to me, even lied on me. i was on one side of the room and they were on the other side. I got stuck only one thing which I hated. I would go home many days and cry. I would constantly swallow my pride and ask them what was the issue and how could we work it out. Every time I was told there is no issue, yet I was still being treated the same. This just made me pull back and become even more introverted. I just used to tell myself that God placed me here for a reason and I would think about my son, who I had to provide for. I also used to feel as if my boss didn’t like me because she never stood up for me. She knew what was going on but would turn a blind eye to it. I was almost at my breaking point several times but I just kept praying and would listen to sermons, fast every week and anything I could to get through the day. I would just take one day at a time because the thought of enduring that any longer was enough to drive me crazy. I’m not writing this for anyone to feel sorry for me because there’s always a silver lining. After the storm, there’s always a rainbow. There was a glitch in the system for years and no one could figure out what was happening. My boss asked me to keep track of the errors that was happening which I did and I figured out a pattern. Doing this allowed me to work with the software developer and the system was fixed. I immediately went from the under dog, to being thanked and recognized by even the head of the practice. This of course didn’t make my coworkers too happy, especially the one that was there the longest. He had something against me and the other female tech followed his lead because she was loyal to him. After that happened, things started turning around. My boss made it a point to tell them that we had to rotate and share the responsibilities. A year and some change later, I was starting to find my place there. The issues were still there but now everyone was starting to realize who was creating the problems. Fast forward to this week, it is believed that that individual was the one to cause me to be unofficially demoted. He was ultimately let go today, and hours after his job was terminated he was waiting outside of the building. My boss and the other supervisors were now worried for my safety and I had to be escorted out of the building through the garage(crazy right?). You would think that I’m the one that should be upset. After all, he practically cost me my job. And yet, I came into work this morning with a smile on my face, I spoke to him as if nothing happened. I helped him with whatever I could and I even convinced my coworker to pay for lunch for him because we all ordered. I have every reason to be upset but I chose not to. I already gave this issue to God months ago and I did it again yesterday when everything started to unfold. I do feel a bit hurt and sad. I don’t want to be looking over my shoulders worried that someone could possibly harm me, for something that had little to do with me. But as I was feeling those emotions, I’m once again reminded of how good God is. I never told my boss about what he was doing or ran to HR. I felt horrible today that he got fired; whether it was warranted or not. I was even planning on reaching out to him to see if he was ok. I will say this, you don’t ever have to try to get revenge on those that wron you. Romans 12:19 says Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord. God said that he will make your enemies your footstool. Never stoop to anyone’s level and pay them back. You will only be hurting yourself more and blocking your blessings. I’ve witnessed first hand how the tide turns. You see this individual felt like his job was secure. He thought that he was securing even more by creating a situation where the other tech and I can no longer perform our duties but in turn, he ended up in the hole that was dug for us. This is why we should never concern ourselves with getting even with someone. It may seem like they’re getting away with it but trust they are not. Sooner or later, God is going to turn it around in your favor. So when you are being wronged and mistreated, always choose to pray for that person, forgive them, release the hurt and hand it over to God. He will take care of the rest! Have a blessed Evening and weekend❤️